While talking to my friend regarding us, talking about the happy stuffs we had done.
I felt happy sharing about us with my friend.
But after that I suddenly break down, my heart suddenly gave way, and i went back to me bunk and hug my pillow with the strength I had.
And tears just burst out and wet my pillow, and i cried for about 10mins...
I always thought I can do it being strong, but I just suddenly breakdown...
Oh no...
Thursday, July 11, 2013
Saturday, July 6, 2013
Life of a Army Boy
Decided to revive this blog like after 23454364574 days~~
Ha, just some random numbers of date la, which a special girl taught me~
7 months had past, and now i'm a sergeant alr, a Scout Recce Specialist.
Being a Scout/recce spec is a very tough and challenging vocation as we are consider heavy load vocation carrying loads of 25-40kg, which compared to BMT field pack which is about 7kg.
But going out on a mission is not the toughest part being a recce spec, but is handling the troopers.
Handling my troopers are another tough and challenging job as they are all bunch of street smart people, or even smarter than me.
They are very well better than me,which the difference is only in the knowledge and the rank.
Which give me a very hard handling them everyday.
Everyday facing them, is so suffocating and making me even afraid to talk to them which giving me no confidence or even depleting them.
Being in the camp, everyday is a stress day, have to be very careful of what ever word i said or whatever action i did, everyday is like a test,exam,PSLE,O'Level, or even taking diploma exam every single day...
One wrong word, one wrong action i've done will have ruin everything and the respect they had for me.
That is what i am going thru, but i nver give up, continue to do my job, which is what making me extremely mentally shag out every single day.
And this kind of thing is what I am going thru, not sure about the rest if same thing is happening to them, but the feeling is giving me is that, it's only happening to me~~
But it's alright
Everyday i will keep myself busy, let time pass by fast,so that i can faster sleep, and the day will be over.
So just repeat the cycle 5 times, and the next thing you know ~
BOOK OUT LO~
Booking out is the best thing i ever had and treasure in my NS, because i'll get to see my love one that nver leave me and continue to love me.
She's a awesome girl, and a very sweet one, or should i say, the sweetest ever in my entire life.
She's been with me for 389 days alr
Created a private blog just to motivate me every single day i'm inside camp, just for my NS life,
total of 240 posts and still continuing~
This is the kind of effort she have made for me~
And i start to think...
What have i done in return....
And i start to wonder...
I couldn't have a answer in my mind....
What i do is just cooking her meals once in a while, talk to her, and that's all???
Pumping her with my negativity, which she hates the most, she tolerated and even help me solve my problem.
This is how awesome she is~~
She is so important that she had alr occupied 40% of my life, she's my listening ear, my helper, my organizer, my planner, my reminder, my everything.
And if one day she would be gone...
I really dunno what i will do or what i will be...
And now many guys are attempting to snatch her away from me~~
And my mind is so confused,my heart is so fluttered...
And what the one guy had done to her, is making me so worry,angry, and lots of mixed feelings...
Things really feel so screwed up now~
Dear Lord,
Please help us to solve all problems.
Pretty please!
Ha, just some random numbers of date la, which a special girl taught me~
7 months had past, and now i'm a sergeant alr, a Scout Recce Specialist.
Being a Scout/recce spec is a very tough and challenging vocation as we are consider heavy load vocation carrying loads of 25-40kg, which compared to BMT field pack which is about 7kg.
But going out on a mission is not the toughest part being a recce spec, but is handling the troopers.
Handling my troopers are another tough and challenging job as they are all bunch of street smart people, or even smarter than me.
They are very well better than me,which the difference is only in the knowledge and the rank.
Which give me a very hard handling them everyday.
Everyday facing them, is so suffocating and making me even afraid to talk to them which giving me no confidence or even depleting them.
Being in the camp, everyday is a stress day, have to be very careful of what ever word i said or whatever action i did, everyday is like a test,exam,PSLE,O'Level, or even taking diploma exam every single day...
One wrong word, one wrong action i've done will have ruin everything and the respect they had for me.
That is what i am going thru, but i nver give up, continue to do my job, which is what making me extremely mentally shag out every single day.
And this kind of thing is what I am going thru, not sure about the rest if same thing is happening to them, but the feeling is giving me is that, it's only happening to me~~
But it's alright
Everyday i will keep myself busy, let time pass by fast,so that i can faster sleep, and the day will be over.
So just repeat the cycle 5 times, and the next thing you know ~
BOOK OUT LO~
Booking out is the best thing i ever had and treasure in my NS, because i'll get to see my love one that nver leave me and continue to love me.
She's a awesome girl, and a very sweet one, or should i say, the sweetest ever in my entire life.
She's been with me for 389 days alr
Created a private blog just to motivate me every single day i'm inside camp, just for my NS life,
total of 240 posts and still continuing~
This is the kind of effort she have made for me~
And i start to think...
What have i done in return....
And i start to wonder...
I couldn't have a answer in my mind....
What i do is just cooking her meals once in a while, talk to her, and that's all???
Pumping her with my negativity, which she hates the most, she tolerated and even help me solve my problem.
This is how awesome she is~~
She is so important that she had alr occupied 40% of my life, she's my listening ear, my helper, my organizer, my planner, my reminder, my everything.
And if one day she would be gone...
I really dunno what i will do or what i will be...
And now many guys are attempting to snatch her away from me~~
And my mind is so confused,my heart is so fluttered...
And what the one guy had done to her, is making me so worry,angry, and lots of mixed feelings...
Things really feel so screwed up now~
Dear Lord,
Please help us to solve all problems.
Pretty please!
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