things that happened so fast.....

Within 3 months.....

Lots of things just happened.....
3 months ago, met a girl....
suddenly get to know her more and suddenly be close to her....

1 month later during february....
suddenly have a crush on her, and decided to confess to her on valentines....

she said that she did not reject me nor is she accepting, as she do not know if it's a crush or not....
we were hanging around happily and sweet moments were created...

however another 1 month later during march....
everything changed....
i got jealous with her entertaining another guy....
and i lose my cool and scolded at her....
all i did was to care about my feelings and keep asking for alot from her and assurance from her,that made her eventually pissed off....
really regretted ttm,even till now, as it's all because that i am just too afraid of losing her....

another month later during april....
things got even worse....
she talked to me that we should end everything and should just remain as friends....
at first, i am fine and i thought that i could be very 潇洒...
but i realised that i cant....

then the next day,i was very very very sad, can feel the intense pain in my heart....
and till recently, came to know that there's a guy who like her and she also like that guy(i think,though she nver say so)

i was like....
omg....
and why issit him...
so i try to accept the fact....

den suddenly something happened between him and her....
i really dunno what happened....
she was very sad from what she posted on twitter though i didnt follow her, and i didnt know till my friend told me after my friend saw her tweet....

i was so damn worried, cuz she cried, and i want to be by her side to keep her accompany and i did not expect anything in return, just do not want her to be sad alone....
so i rushed down all the way to her house and talk to her....

and to my shock....

she is smiling away and laughing away saying that she's alright and fine....
in my heart, i was like....
you cried,and it's must be something very intense that you were sad the entire day....
how can a person just simply cried finish and smile and laugh the next moment?????
so in the end i got even more worried....
i don't know what else i can do.....

all i can do is to believe her that she will be fine....