Secrets??

Sometimes people do have secret that you somehow wanna let people know~~

But when you wanna let certain person know, how can it be called a secret neh?!

Is because that you dunno how to raise it to let that certain person and also because you dunno how to let that person know when it will be awkward to let that person to know as things are alr different between this two person.

But somehow somewhat somewhy, so I guess I'll just say my secret here ba^^

For the someone out there, I miss you...
And I sort of having alot of thoughts coming into my mind during the days that we were not together anymore...

The day when I say that, perhaps we should go our separate ways and maybe after 1 year later more if we were meant to be together, lets be together again...

Because...
You really love me alot that I dunno how to love you even more, that I feel so scared...
That you dun feel so loved anymore...

So what I did is to make you a very important person in my life...

I dunno if I did the right thing or not...

During the verge of breaking up...
I panicked, like I've nver panicked before...
I was so panicked that I wasn't thinking straight at all...

I was like, sigh, shall not elaborate anymore, haha

'soulmate' this word...
I somehow lost the importance of this word for certain time...

The very first time I start to fall in love in you, I told myself that i'm gonna be the one that will share your trouble, be there for you, listen to your problem, solve your problem and no matter what, always be there.

But no idea why...
I lose it...

The moment you walked of my life, I was devastated...

For the moment, I can feel like as though the time had stopped or rather rewind...

I still wanna say that...

I miss you every single day, every single night...

And I remember why the day I wanna you be my gf. ..

Because I wanna take care of you, I wanna love you and be loved by you and be the most happiest couple in this world.

Me filling up your imperfection and you filling up my imperfection.

So many so many up in my mind that even I dunno whether I should say or not to say...

So yeap, shall just leave it as it is ba...

Today went to khatib camp, from the cook house, where I could directly see your house, just made me miss you ultra ultra alot...

That my heart feel so pain for losing...

And losing such a amazing person like you is just a karma for me for not treasuring you by did so many wrong things, said so many rubbish stuffs, nonsensical stuffs...

Yeap, this is the few secret in my heart that shall not be a secret anymore from this instance anymore~~

Occupied heart

Let's have a short blog post baa~~

Roughly about 1 and half year ago~~

One girl once occupied my heart and i was so wanting to be with her~~

But because of my recklessness and my jealousy took the best out of me~~

I hurt her, she stuck in my heart for quite some time and that time i felt horrible~~

Follow which, i met another girl...

She decided to be with me~~~

She made lots of effort in me and in us~~

Eventually she entered my heart and kicked out another one~~

But now, things change, she is now stucked in my heart....

And i'll definitely wun be able to find another girl who is able to kick her out of my heart...

Because she is just too awesome, too good to me that a dumbass like me who dun treasure her so much at all...

Which only began to treasure her after she's gone...